A freelance illustrator living in Malaysia specialized in illustrating children fantasy books. Inspired by the thoughts, senses and emotions in her life; she loves to draw dreamy , mellow and whimsical imaginary with a flair of naive and calming theme.|
She is also nicknamed by the pen-name of 'ambientdream' .
"I am a Muslim artist. Hence I drew a lot of hijabi girls, even my OC; Nalurimaya is a hijabi girl because I thought they are beautiful and deserve the same place in people's eyes like the non-hijabi girls. I hope my religion practice and way of life doesn't affect your stay on my gallery. I am just a normal human being like you too "
Current Residence: dreamland
Favourite genre of music: bossanova, indie, shibuya-kei, lounge, ambient, jazz
Favourite style of art: children illustrations, nostalgia-dreamlike atmosphere, self-realization, conceptual, surrealism, childhood fantasy, narrative dream
Depression and The Five SensesI. Depression smells like cigarette smoke.
Its tendrils wrap around my mind and cloud my clear thinking.
It makes my throat burn,
With words I wish I could scream.
Depression smells like your old coat, hanging up in the hall closet.
The same coat you came home in
When your lungs finally collapsed in on you.
I wonder if a mind could do that.
Collapse in on itself.
Until there is nothing but smoke and the dark murk
Of late night thoughts.
Depression feels like walking out into a frozen over lake.
And falling through the fragile ice.
Between the dark and the light
Inside of my mind.
Suddenly everything is suspended.
I am drifting.
My mind is numb with frost bite.
Who knew I could be this cold?
Depression sounds like a completely silent room.
When the only thing that makes a noise
Is my thoughts.
Suddenly, every emotion is amplified by the quiet.
Silence is a perfect canvas for questioning everything about your existence.
Moments like this make me feel
As if I am not even real.